I've been had some fights with my mum lately. im still a teenager and my mum found out that i've been sending n*des to a bunch of guys. I know it was wrong and learned my lesson, but i did those stuff a few months ago and stopped for a moment because i felt wrong. And during those times, i felt a deep resentment towards myself because apperently, i wasn't "good" enough and gradually losing sight of my own self-worth and inner beauty.
I found myself getting attached to people, drawn to their sweet words and flattering compliments. For once, I felt as though I was finally being loved and appreciated by someone. But, just only to realise that what I had mistaken for their genuine affection was nothing more than empty gestures and that some had taken advantage of my vulnerability.
My mom thinks i wanted to be a prostatute and sleep with a bunch of guys... but it wasn't like that... So my mom have also said, "whenevr u turned 18 one day, don't ever think of living under my roof again". I felt crushed honestly.
i already saved up some cash and during my teenage years, i'm supposed to have fun, but im here, thinking about how would it be after i turned 18. affect me?.... i feel so hopeless...would i be able to survive on my own? would i be financially stable? what r the impacts of the real world wo :confused:uld - divaaa
- first of all, you are sooo young. it's okay to make mistakes, and it's even more important that you can recognize that something was a mistake. since you can acknowledge that, i think you're already doing better than you or your mom think!
don't beat yourself up over a one-off moment: it's easy to get caught up in what other people say to you and how they make you feel in situations like that, but what matters is how YOU think of you. do you know that you won't do it again? do you know that this doesn't define you? because you should! and that's all that matters! try not to base what you think about yourself based off of what guys on the internet tell you or what your mom tells you (i know it's tough trust me).
at the end of the day, you know yourself better than anyone, and you have the power to change who you are at any moment (never forget it)! even if you don't like who you are right now or any action you did recently, you can wake up tomorrow and be completely different (if you want to). a quote i saw recently that i loved said, what you practice makes you who you are, so be careful what you practice, and i think that is so cool to think about because you have total control over it.
your mom may have just reacted the way she did in the heat of the moment, but given some time to process, i'm sure she won't feel as extremely as she does right now. she knows you're just a kid and she's probably made mistakes of her own at your age! maybe tell your mom you know it was a mistake and talk about your plans for the future: chances are, she would like to help plan with you and break the ice after an argument!
i don't know if you're from america or following the traditional path, but after you turn 18 i can guarantee you will be just fine! work hard in high school and you can go to college and pursue any career you want. if that's not your goal, you can go to trade school, the military, enter the workforce right away, there are truly endless opportunities!
don't stress about the future too soon: spend your time being a kid, but hink about what you would love to do in the future and work hard so you have opportunities when the time comes!! everything will work out (trust me!!! it always does!!!), and don't let one poor moment dictate your future. the world is your oyster really!!!
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